Wednesday, February 28, 2007
@7:37 PM
I don't know how this topic came to me...It just did.
Envy.
I envy...a lot. I think it's a great asset, despite that it's one of the seven capital sins. I envy because it makes me feel like being in a competition, either friendly or normal. (But I don't cheat. It would not make the competition honorable) I always do good at competition. It reveals my hidden talents. I had a competitor named Joshua before, and he beat me in almost all the subjects except math.
I envy people because I like them. I like them because there's something special about them. I envy because it gives me reason to compete, but sometimes, it makes me hate my opponents, unless they are friends.
Hate.
I hate...a lot, but not anymore. I only get few competitors, and they are just pathetic. They just act too nerdy and brag everything that they know. I know someone who does but he's failing...math or trigonometry. They usually roam around the library and attack you if they think you're nice and stupid. That's why I hate going to the library anymore. They don't know this, because they think I'm nice. They get near to me everytime I go there, because they think I'm stupid, and can be beaten easily.
I hate them because they underestimate others, and act so knowledgable while they're not. I think, they're the main reasons why almost all of my classmates think so little about themselves. That they will always fail. That they will never learn. I hate them, because of it.
I envy a little on my friends. Rachel is very open on us. I'm not...because I don't want to. She tells us everything about her. Well, maybe not everything, but almost all. I...kinda envy her because I can't. Grace browses the internet a lot, learns a lot of different things, and meet a lot of different people. I don't usually do that. I browse the internet only when I have to, and when feel like it. She has a lot of virtual friends, while I only have one. She's also good at english (You guys should see her blog :D), and has a potential in math, because she shows enthusiasm in it, and she always try to answer the questions our professor throw at us.
I envy them...but I like them, not hate them.
`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`I just want to share a piece of my mind. I hope noone will hate me because of this post. Well, maybe those freaks in the library will, but I hope none of my friends will for envying them.PS: I just want to tell you guys that staying in the library to study is cool, and that doesn't mean that you're a freak already. Just stay smart and maybe we can compete and learn from each other. I hope we will not hate each other for pushing things that are obvious. Let me know if I do, so that I can change. I also don't want to end like them. Maybe I do...so please help me change, if you think so too.
