I really want to go to college now. I'm really bored. I want to go out, but I want to go alone. No family or friends. I know it's a bit ironic that I also don't want to be alone, but I guess I can fool myself by thinking that I'm with myself.
I want to walk but I don't have any destination. I don't like wandering around and look like a fool. That's why I always walk in haste. I only go out because of school, school work, and friends. There was this one time that I thought we were going to practice our dance in cheering, but only few attended, so they just went to the mall. They invited me, so I went with them too. I was laughing really hard inside my head because we just wandered around. Yeah, I felt like a fool, but I was not alone. We even entered a jewelry store that only sells silvers. I saw a camera in the entrance and all, and it was really humiliating for me that we didn't even bought something. I also laughed hard thinking about it.
I want a reason to go out. I hope an emergency or something will come up, so that we HAVE to go somewhere. I want something excitnig to happen...er, exciting, but harmless to happen.
I guess I have to wait until school starts. BTW, AMA will start at May 23, not 25. 25 is friday. I don't want to change my last post because I can do it in this post...I guess school, school work, and friends also give me to exercise (walk) . I'm starting to become lazy.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
@5:21 AM
Well, our rabbit gave birth so we had to stay.
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I played 'Kingom of Hearts - Chain of memories', but I couldn't get through the final boss as Sora. My cousin did. Then we watched it's ending. My cousin left, but I noticed there is something new after that. Riku is now in the 'press start' place, not Sora. I...pressed start *ugh* and then I saw a new menu: New game: Riku.
Oh! BTW, Sora is the 'light', while Riku is the 'darkness'. They were friends, but I'm not sure what really happened next because I didn't play 'Kindom of hearts' in PS2 because I don't have one.
Riku has a heart of darkness and it was used by Ansem (an evil guy. That's all I know. I really wish we had PS2) to survive. In the beginning, Riku was in a place 'between light and dark'. A voice told him to choose: continue sleeping or the door of truth (which is a card for opening doors. He was in Castle Oblivion by the way. Sora too, but Riku started in the lowest basement up to B1 while Sora was in the first floor up to 12F). Riku chose the door, but he only met dark beings. He was told that that's because he rejected everything for darkness. Riku neglected darkness because of that. He reached B3 which is 'Destiny Islands' (Riku's home). He saw his friends but he was ignored by them. He was also attacked by Sora. When Riku was almost devoured by the light. Kairi's voice told him to embrace the darkness and use it against the light. (I don't really know Kairi. Only that she's a very, very, special person for Sora and Riku.) Riku used the darkness inside him to see in the light and saw through the fake Sora.
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Light and Dark
Some of us think that light is good, while dark is bad. Sometimes, it really depends on the purpose and the process of using it.
And sometimes, being in the middle is better than choosing sides. But like what Grace said, the only constant in this world is change.
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"What are you making me choose now?"
"Will you take the road to light-" "-or the road to darkness?"
"Neither." "I'm taking the middle road."
"You mean the twilit road to nightfall?"
"No..." "The road to dawn."
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Monday, April 16, 2007
@3:19 AM
It has been a month since my last post so I'll try to do my best to write something that has sense. I don't feel anything special. That's why I didn't post anything. I just felt that I have to.
I'm going to Cebu. We will just celebrate my grandma's birthday there. I think our family will just stay for a week because my class will start in May 25 or something. I didn't want to go, but I haven't seen my cousins for ages. And besides, AMA doesn't require us to wear uniform so maybe I'll buy some clothes there with lower prices than here in Manila.
Then, after a few days, I'm going to college at AMA and I'm going to take Info Tech. I wanted to take two courses but my mom convinced me not to. I got a grade of 85% or something from their entrance exam, but it's only a 30-question test.
*sigh*
That's it.
I'm too lazy to put any pictures. Sorry.
PROFILE
JM
freak
16
male
has a lots of plans but has no plans in implementing them
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