Thursday, May 31, 2007
@8:44 PM
Karma
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hmm...I guess I was wrong about the cool guys that they're not bullies. They are. Fuck dude. I should have defended myself. Being the good guy is the the worst.
And the lonesome guy? He made friends. With Sam. LOL. Sam is so friendly.
As for me, I have to stay away from them. I don't want any trouble. ... I've been like this since birth. I don't want to fight. Not because I'm weak, but because I'm a good guy. I don't want to hurt anybody. Physically, or emotionally.
Well, I did hurt 2-3 persons emotionally by attacking their weakness (e.g. by telling them how stupid they are, how their life will not going to work, and all the likes), but that's when I was really really full. I put all my anger in my persuasion and it works like hell. Their lives turn out to be the worst. They stop studying, and they start beleiving that their lives are not worth living. And it's all because of me. With my kind of conscience, my life is a living purgatory.I did hurt someone physically, but that was when I was in 4th grade. We were role playing until we got into a fist fight. It's true. But because I was the good guy, my opponent was found guilty. I started the fight though.`-`-`-`-`-`I have to review my notes now. I got to earn some respect through grades again. That's the only way I know.`-`-`-`-`-`
*moans* I love salt and all kind of preservatives. I'm dead anyway. I want to rot slowly.
